Our Dossier (the biggest bunch of paperwork for China) is already almost done, just waiting for our immigration form. Our immigration form is ready to be sent in, but it is waiting on our home study. Our home study is ready to happen, but it is waiting on our medical forms. Our medical forms are sitting in an office waiting for a signature, and they have been for over a week now. Because it's Friday, and because we will be on vacation next week, that medical form won't make it to our home study agency for almost 2 weeks. I was REALLY hoping to deliver the medical forms today so the reviewing could happen next week, and have the home study process begin as soon as we get back. I guess I shouldn't get my hopes up about the time frames for anything in this process; it would probably save me from a lot of disappointments.
Curt is much less emotional about the waiting, which is good for me. He keeps reminding me to look at the bigger picture and not try to micro-manage every document of the "paper chase". I know I'm a control freak and I don't like leaving the task sitting on someone else's desk, but I don't have a choice. All I can do is pray for peace to reign in my heart, and that means letting go!
Another difficult part of the waiting is not knowing anything about our baby. How old will she be? What size shoes will she need? What season will we be bringing her home to? Will she need bottles, or sippy cups? Wow.... am I in the nesting phase?! I almost cried in the store today because I kept seeing things that my little China girl might need, or an outfit that would look really cute on her, but I can't buy much until I know more. But, I do have hope in my heart because God has proven Himself to be faithful over and over, and I know that the answers WILL come, and I will have plenty of time to prepare for her arrival!
It helps to count my blessings, especially the two little ones that I am already able to know, and hold, and hug! Corbin just came to my side and started singing that Barney song... "I love you, you love me, we're a happy family, with a great BIG HUG and a kiss from me to you, won't you say you love me too!" Yep, I love my kids! All three of them! Thanks for the hugs Corbin, I needed them. :-)
